In the warm embrace of the night, I listened to the steady hum of cicadas, breathing in the peace of this refuge, trying to still my racing thoughts. . .
Don’t you dare John?!” May accompanied angrily to her fiancée, I stood there wearily in front of them with my hand stands below my chin. “We need to talk” said John half-heartedly. “No more talk! No more you and me, no more!” groaned May with tears in her eyes. She turns to face me “let’s go, what’s the point of staying up late here” I follow her gaze to wherever she is going through “you sure okay?” I asked and she hesitated, “I would understand if you wanted to be alone, you know” I manage to see her expression but all I could see was approval to my words. “Thank you” we hugged for a brief shirt if time as I handed her my handkerchief and I went alone in my English Class. Seating alone without May, my best friend, and the only thing I had. Here comes Xian, the cute guy sitting next to May and me - actually the greatest crush I and May have (sounds funny you know) -came to approach me, "hey Line, where's May?" he asked, and at the moment I was blushing, it was the very first of all times he did ask me. “um... some family problems" I answered hesitantly "oh! I see." was all he said, and left without even saying goodbye. Honestly I was disappointed for that matter.
The next morning, May was up calling me. "Pauline! Pauline!" she cried, i turned around to face her "yes bestie?" I answered, and her breath was taking faster, "Are you okay?" I asked wearily. "I was looking for you anywhere. And at last I did find you here" she paused and then continue "I need to tell you something, that even me, myself , can't believe it" oh! I wondered "I'm sorry, what is it?" she smiled “Xian was asking me on a date, today" she said, proudly. "What about John, was it really over?"
"Oh! Common stop talking about that guy, better be pestering someone else, I'm getting sober, okay?” I guess you already are, I told myself. "So I have to go, okay? I'll see you later then? I got to prepare myself" she muttered. "Okay, Enjoy there!" she gave me a sweet peck then went away.
After class, I went to the cafeteria with Dave, I saw there, May with Xian waving at my sight, as soon as I get closed to them "Hey!" I said taking a seat in front of them with Dave on my side. "Stop teasing me Apple, or else I would kiss you" said Xian, May wearing a curious expression said "APPLE?" she asked. "Because you are the Red apple and I am your sweet Chocolate"
"I bet its white chocolate" May teased. "Um... Sorry but I think Dave is getting a 'lilt thirsty, we need some soda on the store" i said, smiling, “Nah! Just take good care of my bestie, Dave" said May. and I turned to face Xian instead of May "You too Xian, don't take my sissy too much" he smiled- and honestly he looks beautiful- " you better watch for yourself Line, take care" I was touch, and I like the way he thoughts.
I back out and he screamed on the back of me "I can assure you too that I will take good care of May so well." I smiled and nodded. Actually, I was a little bit jealous - Oh no! I wasn't. PREPOSTEROUS! After taking up some soda, we went back to the school quick.
TWO MONTHS PASSED. . .
I saw Xian for the first time walking along the hallway all by his self. As I was near into him, he said together tapping my elbows "hey! Where are you going?"
"Somewhere" I said. "You mind if I come with you?" we stare for a long moment of time, and it is really in him that I couldn't able to refuse. So it's been 5 days straight that we always hang-out together, just the two of us.
You’re such a lilt coward Xian! So what's this all about?" I said, with cheeks turning peach."Yeah. I just wanted to tell you that you really mean a lot to me Pauline." He said with sincerity in his gold eyes, "you sure does to me too Eye shield." he smiled. "I love you" as he said those words, I saw nothing but sincerity and honesty in his voice. As I thought of May then, her present girlfriend. "Yes I love May, before, but I think it's not her whom I really want. It's you! It’s you Pauline Katen Samson: My Hearty Barky." I smiled and then for a second he came close and, surprisingly, he slip his arms around my neck down to my waist. He leaned into me, and when I closed my eyes, I knew I wanted more than to hold him this way forever.
Later, after we spent a good part of the night talking and kissing on the beach I ran my fingers along her jaw and whispered, "I love you too, Xian " I closed my eyes again, and feel the warmth of his body against mine. "I love you More and more Pauline.""I think you should fix that one problem with May, I don't want to hurt her, I love her too, Xian”
The day after, Xian and May flashed through my way. "You bitch!" May slapped me hardly, hot with anger, in the face, and I could not say a word."I'm sorry May." I apologize, "SORRY? Fuck! You’re nothing but a piece of rotten snake! Traitor! Bitch! Dirty woman! I hate you so much for doing this Katen!" she cried, she left with the pain she inflicted in me. "Are you okay? I'm sorry; I just needed to fix this, you and May, in time"
"You will?" I said crying. "Yes I promised!" we chase May quickly on the parking lot. She stare at me with eyes full of anger, "Back-off Pauline" then turned to face Xian, "If you want to settle this, come with me “she said. Xian faced me, and I understood why he really has to come.
It's passed 9:00 o'clock in the evening, but Neither Xian or May called me. 10:00 o'clock and I'm still waiting for a call, then for a sudden "kriiing! kriiing!" I hurried and answer the phone. "Hello, Xian?"
But an unknown voice answered me "Is this Pauline Samson?"
"Yes, it is? Why?" I worried. "This is Sheila of Roy's Hospital, come quick!" then put the phone down. I brag off to the hospital with all the tensions in my weary eyes. Then there I saw my best friend cold with eyes open and a terrifying face-expression beside the man I love. I cried and hold Xian’s rigidly vibrating hands; my shirt was full of Jelly-sticky-blood as I am hugging the bloody body of my Partner. “Don’t leave me, eye shield! I need you; please don’t leave me” I said, pleading and begging him “fight! I know you could do it. Don’t leave me, I need you” I said, crying and believing that he could survive from this tragic event. He opens his weak eyes, and murmured “I love you, and only you. I’m sorry, I can’t make up the promise I made” I cover his mouth “don’t say that you can do this, together we’ll fight, okay?” He closed his eyes once again, and he ran his cold fingers on my cheek down to my lips “I-I-I l-love y-you Pau. . .” he didn’t finished what he said, and his hands fall, I open my eyes and stare at him, crying. “Don’t do this Xian!” I hug him for the last, and I whispered into his cold, pale ears “I love you, and I’ll always will. Wherever you are right now, I know you are happy, and I’m happy too, not for leaving me, but to see you rest in peace, I love you forever my eye shield” It’s hard for me to say, but it would be much harder if I wouldn’t accept the fact that he’s gone away. With tears in my eyes, I reminisce the moments we’ve been together.
In the warm embrace of the night, I listened to the steady hum of cicadas, breathing in the peace of this refuge, trying to still my racing thoughts. Crying on the sixteenth day April, the day Xian told me that he loves me and the day May and I met. I stare blankly at the silver-stone moon and for the briefest instant; it almost feels like we’re together again.
